the unforgotten momento.....

Last night will never be forgotten...setelah sekian lame aku x nyanyi depan org (except depan hubby , anak2 and our staff and few friends) that was so .......nerve breaking...hahahaha..rasa nak terkencing pun ada..tupun malam tadi sejok gak...dah la sekian lama x keluar "dating" dengan hubby...so when one friend, Bean, ajak gi concorde nyanyi atas pentas..my hubby terus setuju and he wanted me to sing on stage...seronok tapi takut..takut lupe lirik la....walaupun ada jugak practice masa jamming kat ofis..hehhehee..kitaorg tinggalkan anak2 kat rumah kakak..then about 8 pm both of us pun pergi ke concorde where few friends dah menunggu

setelah sekian lama x hujan ..malam tadi boleh hujan lebat pulak...dah la nervous campur dengan sejok pulak...minum air banyak pulak..rasanye berpuluh kali jugak la masuk keluar toilet..we reached there then lepak2 minum hot chocolate.....then the band masuk and nyanyi....they are good....local band...and friendly too..well..dah keja kat hotel kena friendly...satu tugas.

bila diaorg dah habis 1st set..diaorg turun lepak with penonton kat bawah..kebetulan x ramai org sangat so..diaorg lepak with us...then my friend requested to let me sing on stage..one the band singers said ok...so bila dah sampai set kedua..he presented me as guest artist..hhaahhahahha..rasa nak termuntah pun ada..bukan ape...i'm not even an artist..dgn gugupnya aku pun mula nyanyi lagu all time favourite.."zombie by the cranberries"..at the beginning memang rasa mcm cacat jer...sebab too nervous..but bila dah panas sikit..bolehla..at least aku dapat melepasi cabaran berdepan dengan org ramai dan menyanyi on stage selepas rasenya 12 tahun x buat nyanyi depan org.

then org mula ramai datang...my friend and my hubby wanted me to sing one more song...aku dah mula rasa nervous balik..so bila sampai ke set yang terakhir ..one more time..aku menyanyi lagi..lagu "what's up by 4 non-blonde" aku rasa aku dah keluarkan semua suara...memang belasah habis dah tu...at least x kaku kali ni...dah nak balik kan...hehhehehe

it was the moment aku lepaskan all my stress dan my hubby kotakan one of my dreams ..thanks sayang...well...it is quite romantic though...hehhehehehe....you are too good to be true ..i used to tell you that long time ago....and i am very lucky to have you...so lucky..Alhamdulillah..Allah yang menetapkan jodohku dan aku amat bersyukur dgn apa yang aku ada saat ini..dan akan kuhargai sampai ke akhir hayat.....

a mom's life final

hari ni pulak i want to tell stories about my little ones...the forth kid of mine...Norsharafana Liyana...sharafana sama makna dengan Sharifah actually..that's why i chose this name at the first place..i've got this instinct yang boleh agak my baby lelaki or perempuan..i don't know but empat-empat anak yang dilahirkan semuanya dah dapat agak lelaki or perempuan walaupun x pergi scan lagi...Alhamdulillah...kuasa Allah..kita hanya mampu merancang dan Allah yang menentukan..
Sepertimana kita merancang mengharapkan segalanya berjalan dengan lancar tetapi ada kalanya diri kita ditimpa sesuatu yang kita sendiri x jangka..sama dengan kelahiran Adek. Ketiga-tiga anak yang terdahulu dilahirkan secara normal. I also didn't have trouble with my pregnancy with Adek. Tetapi pada waktu tu I did feel like my body was aching so much...and susah nak tarik nafas dalam2..Sebelum pregnant I went to many specialist to know ape sebenarnya yang berlaku...but most of the doctors said...Stress...and even berubat secara traditional pun ada jugak yang cakap stress...So..I've done lots of things yang boleh bagi diri x stress...sampai di bulan yang ke-9 pregnant..Sehari selepas my sister datang sebab nak tolong jaga anak2 sekiranya nak kena pegi hospital untuk bersalin...i felt pain on my stomach..rasa nak terputus nyawa rasanya waktu tu...that was first contraction and then it slowed down..but untuk keselamatan me and my hubby terus berangkat ke hospital swasta yang memang dah diregister awal2. sampai di hospital tu..seperti biasa nurse nak tau bukak berapa..she said 3cm..so it was not the time yet..then the nurse put this alat untuk tau degup jantong baby dlm perut..about 5 minutes i think nurse tu check and asked why degup jantong baby macam lemah...then she called the doctor..i didn't feel the pain at all in that moment. The doctor pun x taula buat ape maybe tried to pecahkan air entuban ...in that moment yang keluar nya adalah blood...so muka doctor dah pucat..but luckily as a doctor he told my hubby...this case better be sent to Selayang hospital which is fully -equipped for this kind of emergency cases..I was scared already but still i did not feel any pain..cuma rasa darah kept on keluar ....so the doctor called the private ambulance which is so *****ing late..after one hour dah kitaorg tunggu kat hospital tu baru sampai...dahle we have to pay for the ambulance sendiri...luckily we both were fully prepared on the financial.
So bila dah siren berbunyi and for the first time in my life, merasa naik ambulans...sampai di Selayang hospital..i was sent straight to the emergency room where terlalu ramai doctors and interns yang mengkaji my case...rasa segan pulak.. but before that my hubby diarahkan untuk sign one document untuk maklumkan he agreed the operation to be done and when my hubby asked apa akan terjadi..the doctor cuma cakap we have to selamatkan the mother first, if the baby selamat that will be a miracle.....so the doctor asked me to bukak semua barang kemas and also my contact lense..and i was sent to one room dimana my hubby x boleh masok..when pada masa tu I really needed his strenght...I was so sad...memandangkan contact lense dah dibuka so i didn't really see macamana muka hubby waktu tu ...what to do...So after that ..all the operation preparation was ready for me...i've been given epidural...so sick of it actually..and it hurts... kena inject kat tulang belakang....but for my baby..dalam hati berkata...i can't describe my feeling in that moment..semuanya berkecamok...
bila dah dengar baby nangis..and one of the nurse tunjukkan baby to me yang dalam keadaan sedar tapi x dapat melihat dengan jelas ..cuma dapat tengok "pepek" baby..and I said to the nurse "eei nampak pepek.".and tersengih...and the nurse pun tersengih..Alhamdulillah...apa yang dilalui seperti satu igauan buruk yang tidak pernah terlintas di kepala...cuma my baby terpaksa di tahan di wad NICU untuk pemeriksaan lebih lanjut..and furthermore i was so x terdaya after the operation..maybe sebab darah dah terlalu banyak keluar.. then i was sent to recovery ward dimana untuk couple of hours di pantau keadaan ..Alhamdulillah jugak..then barula i was sent to ward biasa...my hubby just wait di luar kerana x dibenarkan jaga..nasib baik i can sleep..itupun sebab ubat bius masih ada kesannya lagi.

Rupanya "temunik" tertanggal awal dalam perut and that shouldn't be happened but it happened to me..tu yang menyebabkan pendarahan and baby dah kekurangan oxigen ..luckily kedua2nya dapat diselamatkan and masa ni hanya Allah yang tahu betapa bersyukurnya kami. cuma x dapat rasa lega lagi..sebab adek masih ditahan di NICU...the first day i was not allowed to see my baby..sebab nak angkat kencing pun x larat....all nurses yang buatkan..masuk second day i've been advised to walk slowly and move...so i did ...then the third day..i can walk already..but maseh kena pakai wheel chair sometimes especially bila nak tengok adek dlm kotak transparent tu....(i hate to see that view...sad actually) so i was released on the third day and sent to accompany my baby kat wad NICU sebab dia x boleh balik lagi...so i've been put to one room yang khas untuk mak jaga baby yang baru dilahirkan...adek was ok already..dah dilepaskan pakai tiub..but masih dlm pengawasan..she had a slight fever but later the forth day one doctor cakap my baby macam nampak kuning..then when they check memang betol dia dah kena demam kuning..so kena letak di bawah lampu2 biru tu..the first day cuma dua ...tapi malam tu adek merengek so..i put her beside me...malangnye that make her fever terus naik...and the doctors kena tambah lagi another 4 lampu untuk kurangkan kuning dia..i can't help myself and i can't help her in this moment...rasa nak balik rumah cepat2 tapi adek masih x sembuh lagi...luckily hari yang keenam di hospital ..fever adek dah xde tapi seminggu lagi kena datang balik buat check-up..lepas tu kena buat check-up once a month untuk pemeriksaan pada effect demam kuning pada adek...takut pertuturan dan pertumbuhan dia terbantut...Sekarang peristiwa tu dah dekat nak 3 tahun berlalu...Adek sekarang ni dah x dapat nak di stop dari terus bercakap..mulut macam bertih jagong...She is different...baik dari segi melahirkan die, rupa die, dan jangkamasa breasfed die pun lagi lama dari yang lain..yang lain cuma sempat menyusu sehingga bulan ke 2 tapi Adek hisap susu badan sehingga umur die 2 tahun....dia sihat dan cerdik ..Alhamdulillah...

a mom's life 3

hari ni dah masuk february....pejam celik pejam celik..masa berlalu...i'm getting older and my kids getting to the stage di mana kerisauan bukan pada nappy rashes and nak susu malam2.Now is the stage risau tentang sakitpening diaorg and schools...this is the story of my third one..Mohd Safwan...when i was pregnant with him..i also don't have any problems...bila dah cukup time..i had a bleeding..that was betol2 malam tahun baru cina 2004..my mom and my dad were at home in that moment to look after the other two..so tepat pukul 12 mlm bila bunyik mercun berbunyik me and my hubby were on the way to klinik bersalin kat shah alam....i was admitted by the laluan masih x cukup utk baby keluar..so have to be induces..as usual...so terpaksa bermalam di klinik tu with my hubby jaga...actually dlm banyak2 moments..this moment yang buat i feel fobia nak bersalin...takut sakit beb...hehehhe..but selalunya i have to remind myself betapa banyaknya pahala seorang perempuan bila melahirkan zuriat especially zuriat suaminya...berganda-ganda...so perasaan nervous and takut sedikit sebanyak dpt dikurangkan. so, the next morning..laluan dah cukup besar and it was time...sakitnya..Allah saje yang tahu...dahla for 2 kids usually i asked the nurse to give me the injection to reduce the pain..but this time..the nurse cuma cakap...duduk bersila and tarik nafas panjang2..jadi the delivery will be quicker....i did and sampai muka dah jadi macam udang galah sebab dah tahan sakit sangat i ask one nurse to call my hubby yang sibok nak ambik udara pulak kat luar...dah x tahan and i said "I WANT THAT INJECTION!!!"..so the nurse pun inject..but few minutes later..safwan lahir ke mukabumi ni...sihat dan sempurna...Alhamdulillah..at last.!!.. so hari2 berjalan seperti biasa sampai bulan ke 2 where i had to go back to work since masa tu masih kerja lagi kat one bank di Taman Melawati. So i've sent him and Mimi to the nursery yang dulunya Farhan pernah dijaga..(but in this moment Farhan dah ada babysitter sendiri yang xnak ambik budak kecik) so terpaksa dipisahkan...The very first day hantar die ke nursery tu...ada sejarah yang menyakitkan hati jugak...sebab bila balik dari kerja...one woman tiba2 terus datang and said she was soooooo sorry...me and my husband didn't know what happened...but bila tanya where is safwan..org yang kerja kat nursery tu bawak die..and terkejut tengok muka die...dah jadi macam muka edward the scissorhand...penuh dengan luka kesan cakar...rupanye anak pada this lady dah cakar muka die...nak nangis rasanye tengok muka safwan masa tu..but he didn't cry masa kitaorg ada...i didn't know who to blame...that lady siap bagi hadiah pada safwan to tebus salah anak kecik dia yang tak boleh campur dengan org lain...apa yang dikesali is mane pegi org jaga diaorg???..dok mengangkang ke..org bayar la!!!..nasib baik masa tu temper masih dlm kawalan lagi...the next day difahamkan that kid tak dok kat nursery tu lagi..and me ..tak lama tarok anak2 kat nursery..i took a maid..who last for nearly 3 months but caught pukul anak2...*sigh*..this is i think one the biggest problems when ambik maid untuk jaga anak2...when maid tak ada ..i asked my sister to jaga sampai i resigned....have to sacrify...money means nothing kalau nak dibandingkan dengan anak2..rezeki boleh dicarik dimana-mana
Safwan membesar menjadi anak yang sometimes boleh ikut peraturan but sooooo...degil..but also funny...selamba dia je cakap ape2...apa yang dia fikir tula yang dia cakap...ish...laser jugak anak aku ni...usually dia sorang yang bila ambik kasut dari rak kasut..he will be the one yang bila bukak kasut balik and put it back to where it belongs...and he loves...insects..sampai me and my hubby risau takut die bermain pulak dengan serangga or binatang yang sangat bahaya...ergh...agaknye dulu masa kecik2 my hubby suka beli toys serangga yang kecik2...gee...i don't like that..
so kitaorang panggil die mat kerengge...he has this husky voice ..so usually die bila nak bercakap die terpaksa bercakap guna suara halus which sebijik macam bunyik satu iklan "digi" kalau x silap...where that guy mintak setengah gelas teh tarik..and tanye "kenape?"...exactly macam suara org tu bila safwan bercakap...hhahahhahha..he like to rock...ganas...sampai bila nyanyi dengan penuh perasaan especially bila dengar lagu "my chemical romance"...dlm hati ganas jugak anak aku ni..!!!

well...this year dia dah masuk 5 yrs..sepatutnya nak kena hantar pegi tadika..but bila tanya dia sendiri nak tak pegi sekolah..dia seolah-olah macam tak nak ...itupun ada sedikit masalah where we thought tak payah hantar dulu sebab takut nak pindah rumah..then nak kena register balik..tupun x compulsory nak hantar budak umur 5 yrs pegi tadika..kalau dah 6 yrs barula penting hantar...so kitaorg tinggalkan die dan sara kat rumah..

apa yang menggelikana hati bile esok hari mula persekolahan, farhan and mimi sangat excited kemas barang2 sekolah...and him..dok main dengan his toys...bile mimi sibuk cakap esok mimi nak sekolah..die tanye..."safwan?"..i said..."safwan xyah g sekolah dulu.." and he asked "kenape?"..like that iklan..hehehhehe..so papa die cakap..."nanti bile mimi dan abang pegi sekolah wan dapat tengok tv puas2..."...and he said sambil melompat..."yahooooooo!!!!"...kahakahakahak...apela punye anak..suka bila x sekolah...!!!

the next day bile die tengok mimi bawak bekal air ke sekolah he also asked my sister untuk sediakan bekal air untuk die...my sister pun tanye.."wan nak pegi sekolah ke?"..die pun cakap "a'a.." then my sister tanye lagi.."wan sekolah kat mane?"..die dan muka selamba nye jawap.."wan nak sekolah dalam bilik wan ni.."..sambil berlalu bawak bekal air dan tengah main dengan toys dlm bilik die...:-\..kuangkuangkuang...

kalau nak cerita pasal peel anak2 ni ..rasanye...x pernah habis..so i'd better stop dulu..nanti nak cerita pasal adek pulak..

a mom's life 2

again...I will share my experiences as a mom for 4 kids...now it is time for the second one...Norshamimi Liyana...going to be 7 this year..just having her first year in secondary school which at first gave her all those excitements...but later after one day...she was really tired already for having 2 sessions of school world..can't blame her though...since nowadays kids are demanded to attend school from 7 am to 7 pm and then to attend tuition class or other activities which suck their energies.

she is so cute when she was a baby..when she is growing up...all she knows..make-ups, shoes, clothes and should be in pink...girls.....hmmm..she follows her brother's step...likes to give cards on any occassion...the first "letter" i've received from her says "mamajanjinabeli bajumimi"...no space...then later the second letter says "mama mimi na ucap kan selamat hari jadi unto mama sebab hari ini hari jadi mama nanti mimi na bagi hadiyah unto mama Harijadi"...there was space but the spelling is berterabur...then the third one she wrote "mama-mimi-nak-mintak-maaf-dekat-mama. sebab-semalam-hari-jadi-mama sebab tulahmimi mintak maaf.kepademama..."*****:-\....still all those words made me feel great because my kids are thinking about me...it is one of the ways to show their loves...it feels superb...no words can describe when i've read my son's and daughter words to me ....

One time she used to say " bile mama dah tue nanti, baju-baju mama ni mimi ambikla..."...gee..sampainye hati..nak suruh mamanya tue cepat....isk...i wanna be my kids' bestfriend...i don't wanna feel old....but then my naluri as mother sometimes get over me...i have to be protective and strict...but it might change ...ikut keadaan...all i've learnt having a daughter...all my make-ups are in mess...and usually out of sight....missing in action...most of the time i can find it in my daughter's handbegs......or in their jeans pockets....alahai...botakla kepala papanye nanti and i've learnt to love pink colors....now it's one of my favourite colors.!!!!(which in my teenage life....i really hated this color.

Mimi always mad at me and her papa if we don't "jalan-jalan cuci mata" kat shopping complexs which when the economy is very tight..we won't take a risk because all the kids most probably will ask something or anything to buy..gee.....so...we just let her muncungkan mulut and will buy her ice cream instead....hahahhaaha.. to cool her down....

well...maybe for some people, think this is a boring topic to be shared...i don't give it a ****..this is my world..and my priority world is being a mom...hehehheehehe...hope all of women in the world can have these experiences...

a mom's life

when we are talking about mom...we will remember our mom..and as a mom i remember my mom,mom-in law and my kids...when i got this title..i was 24...half woman and half teenage..but still this title changed me from someone who was taking life for granted to someone who think life seriously..Alhamdulillah...i'm happy with that change though so many things have to be adjusted.

when i'm talking about my kids...i think it will take days to finish..so many things i want to share but some maybe a good listener to this kind of topics...anyway..today i want to start about the first one..farhan..he's going to have his upsr this year which make me feel worry since he is a kind of kid who when he plays he forget everything including his studies...(like me.. i'm afraid..) but deep down in my heart i know he is a clever boy..and a good boy too though most of time he makes me angry...what i've learnt about him since he was a baby..he doesn't give me so much trouble ..but when he's growing up..he keeps on asking me questions which sometimes i was so mad to answer..but still every birthdays, mother's day and hari raya..he'll make one card specially for me and my hubby...so touchy and funny too.... these two cards from him which i want to share because they touched my heart as his mom..:

Hari Raya card:-

1st page : selamat hari raya aidilfitri
2nd page : daripada Mohd Farhan Al-Hisham
Mama, papa selamat hari raya aidilfitri dengan maaf zahir dan batin.
Mama dan papa, kamek mok mintak maaf. kamek selalu buat hal dengan safwan,mimi dengan sara. kamek mok mintak maaf sebab kamek gagal dalam ujian. Mama dengan Papa marah tapi kamek sayang mama dengan papa. Kamek cakap yang sik elok dengan kamek selalu sakat adik-adik. Tapi, bila dalam van jak kamek selalu suka budak-budak. semua budak-budak suka kat kamek. walaupun mama dan papa suka marah kamek tapi kamek selalu bersabar. kamek kecik-kecik dulok kamek selalu menangis satu malam. mama dengan paap tidur kat dalam bilik. kamek nangis sebab mama dengan papalah kamek lahir dengan adik-adik kamek. kamek tauk mama susah mok lahirkan kamek. mama takut kelak kamek mok susu dengan sik boleh tidur bila malam. papa pulak selalu bekerja sampei malam sebab mok carik duit. kamek lagik sedih papa selalu ada lukak kat tangan papa,kaki papa. masa kecik-kecik dulok-dulok. kamek tauk perasaan mama dengan papa. papa selalu mengajar sampei malam. mama pulak selalu masak pagi-pagi dengan buat baju kat rumah. Perasaan mama dan papa ialah mok anaknya jadi orang cemerlang.. *sign* farhan ..kepada mak dan ayahku

3rd page : his drawing and these words:
Temerloh Bandar Ikan Patin
Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

- first time baca this card...there was tear in my eyes and the tears burst out with laugh because susunan kata tunggang langgang walaupun boleh difahami..whatever it is i know all these times..though i was so angry at him bila malas belajar and whatever yg dia buat yang boleh mendatangkan marah..apa yg dicakap dan dibuat from me and hubby ada masuk jugak dlm telinga dia..

this second card was given to me as a surprise card..I was got back from work and he knew where i usually sit and he put that card on the chair..this is sempena Mother's Day. he wrote:=
1st page : by:Farhan
Selamat Hari Ibu and a drawing of LOVE

2nd page : Daripada : Anakmu, Farhan
Ibu,
Tidak ada barang berharga yang dapat saya hadiahkan kepada ibu sempena hari ibu.
Ibu, saya akan menghadiahi ibu keputusan yang elok dalam peperiksaan/ujian. Saya tidak berputus asa untuk mendapatkan keputusan. Tak kira kena pukul, dalam hati saya, saya sedih dan selalu kasihan dekat ibu. Ibulah segala-gala dalam dunia ini dan ayah saya. Adik-adik adalah untuk bermain yang elok-elok tapi saya akan jaga adik dengan perkara yang berfaedah. Ibu, saya cintai ibu, sayang ibu & terima kasih melahirkan saya menjadi anak yang berguna. Terima kaih ibu.
Kepada : Ibu yang tersayang..

yang benar, *sign*
(Anakmu, Farhan)

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hehehhehehe...still so touchy for me when i read it..and funny too...still i can understand what he was trying to tell ...just afraid...macamanala dia buat karangan when it's time utk upsr bahasa malaysia...last time when we (both me and my hubby) gave him lots of essay homeworks...alamak ai...I think if i were a teacher ...he will fail with all red colours for essay...even Bahasa Malaysia pun x betol coz since baby memang dah biasa cakap bahasa sarawak...now dah ok sikit bila bercakap dengan his friends and others..bahasa Inggeris lagila tunggang langgang...pening kepala...when we sent him for tuition..what he has done...ber"awek"...ada surat cinta lagi...ye nadey....what are you thinking!!! ( well...for me it was like mama borek anak rentek..hahhahaha) but still as parents i wont let that happens..not now ...in this case my husband and I still have this conservertive mind...study first ..still too young to play that rubbish..now...xde apa yang dpt mengait kan dia dan cinta cinta tu...x taula dia sorok all loves letter kat mane...his papa usually buat spot-check in his begs..baik sekolah kebangsaan and sekolah agama...

sometimes...rasa serba-salah marah kat anak but i think it is for their own goods...ni baru peel yang pertama...yg kedua will be shared later....once you entered the parenthood...i will be difficult not to have these kind of experiences.. i don't think i am only the one who has been in this kind of things...there are so many moms out there...right?

the funnies.....

today...not workingla...last night sent my sister to meet her bestfriend and have to be at home for kids...furthermore no urgent work at the office..woke up at 6am..got early headache....since x dpt sembahyang..trus kejut my son ...sekolah..tried to sambung tidor..x dpt jugak..kejut hubby sembahyang subuh and he said he wants to jog today....hehehehhe..jaga badan nampak...adek pun bangun awal pulak...dengan her "popcorn mouth" awal pagi dah banyak cakap.
My hubby said his running shoes dah rosak..so teringat ada sport shoes yg die dah lama x pakai...ingatkan dah settled problem...so die pun berkobar-kobar g jogging....me...masih nak try tido balik sebab kepala sakit...usually it takes 30 mins or 1 hour baru hubby balik jogging..but today..I guess about 10 mins later he opened the door...since x pakai contact lense..so mata buta la x nampak...I asked him why so fast?? then he said..."tengokla ni!... so ambik spect..ler...rasa x dapat nak bayangkan what happened to his running shoes...hahahhahahha...xde tapak dah...kahkahakah...rupenye bila dah lama x pakai kasut nya jadi rapuh...die bawak lari..tetiba one tapak terpelanting...on the road...when all people tgh sibuk pegi kerja and infront of few Segi College student...(girls)...hahahhaha..can't imagine...one tapak dah lesap..one more left...so he walked and another tapak pulak terpelanting...and left only the top and the socks...(in this moment i can't stop myself from laughing!!!)Malu punye pasal..he took the shortcut back home..but the gate was locked and he had to ask a favor from one kindergarten teacher to let him passed through..the teacher saw what happened to his shoes...and laughed at him...mane nak tarok muke beb...hehehhehe..so he walked with socks and whatever yang tertinggal pada shoes tu...after this ..he has to buy a quality and comfortable shoes to jog...or he can jog with socks....hahahahhahahaha...what an experience!!!Never mind sayang...if people saw you kat jalan with that new "style" ...people might think..."dari mana that bangla dapat that stylo shoes ???"hahhahhaaa..sorry can't help it ..bile sebut pasal bangla or yg sewaktu dengannye reminds me of another story when my younger son mistaken someone else who he thought was his papa.

That day we wanted to go out..as usual..makan hangin...before that, safwan was sleepy and took a nap on sofa..bila nak keluar baru kejut die..then he walked out the door..my hubby and others dah keluar awal..then i heard safwan cakap " papa buat ape?...." and he asked the same question over and over again but I didn't hear the answer for his question..so bila dah keluar ..locked the door and grill..tgk die dah rapat dengan one foreign neighbour who might be org nepal or org vietnam who was repairing his bicycle..I was wondering ..and when he asked once again " papa buat ape??' baru la I know..he thought that person was his papa...kahkahakahakah..when I asked him..safwan tanya kat siapa...that person baru menoleh sambil tersengih mcm kerang busuk...and my son baru realise dari tadi die dah tanya salah org...hahahahaha..so i thought..apa yg my son tengok pada org tu yg sama dgn my hubby???...that man x pakai baju and just pakai towel...my hubby 'usual style'...that's why....so hubby if you read this...don't dress like that foreigner ok...nanti silap2 anak2 pelok salah org...hahahhhahahaha....or what if your own wife silap pelok org...muahahhahahahha......

when it comes to children..so many funny things yg keluar dari mulut diaorg...like one time ..when nak jalan2 ..my youngest daughter who will turn 3 this year dah x sabar2 nak keluar..so I told her.."nak cepat macamana..bukan mama bawak kereta.." then she said " mama x yah bawak keta, mama bawak ipstick je..." (lipstick)..kuangkuangkuang...tula anak pempuan ...ingat make-up je..baru nak masuk 3 thn..belom lagi teenage....aduh..rasa sakit perut gelak dengan ayat2 diaorg ni.... masih banyak lagi cerita yang lucu but these are one of the funniest in my life setakat ni...until next time...teringat one ayat..don't be afraid to laugh at yourself....(jgn selalu buat cukup..nanti ada yg kena hantar pg wad gila...)

children.....

today is cuti lagi....bangun lewat la...esok anak2 nak sekolah kena bangun awal lagi..as usual farhan yg kena bangun dulu since bas sekolah ambik awal...sediakan coco crunch and milk dah cukup utk dia..just sometimes kalau die demand kena buat egg sandwich..lepas die g sekolah baru sembahyang...masih waktu lagi...then kejut mimi pulak..yg ni payah sikit...nak kena mandikan...sama macam farhan dulu2. sekolah agama pagi ...so masuk lewat sikit...bfast bagi mimi susah sikit...appetite die terbukak lewat sikit..pukul 10 am baru die carik makan.anyway die kena paksa jugak take a bite roti and minum susu. jln kaki je hantar die ke sekolah sbb depan rumah...tp ambik kesempatan exercise sikit...dah sampai rumah kalau x adek or safwan dah bangun...yang terus bukak tv tengok cartoon...cartoon..cartoon...x habis2...dah sidai baju2 and kemas rumah...mandi and siap nak g kerja...sometimes this task kakak yg buat..depends siapa yang bangun dulu...

bila anak2 dah makin besar..dah makin kurang rasa kelam kabut...tp susah hati nye ke lain pulak...especially to farhan... dahla this year die ada upsr...mula2 dulu semangat la...but one week after...dah malas bukak buku..tau2 nak tengok tv aje...pening kepala...nak kena leter je hari2 ...ntahla..sekarang pun kepala tengah sakit...baru je die kena marah oleh papa suruh buat latihan...haaaiiiiii.....anak anak....

what a life

today kena hantar anakbuah dan cucu ke lcct. balik bintulu....aleh aleh ngam ngam kat lcct, adek pulak termuntah sebab perut full sangat.habis kena seluar and baju...aduh....kepala dah start penin...so tak keluar dari kereta...then terus balik ke rumah..tukar baju adek and myself then kuar balik nak lunch..sekarang ni dah malas sangat nak masak..laok kat dlm fridge dah dibeli dari kakak masuk hospital sebab kes denggi ari tu tp tak masak2 lagi...letih giler...dan dah start bosan sangat duduk kat rumah ni...tak sabar-sabar nak pindah..come on dptla kunci cepat2 sebelum mat pet curik benda apa apa ntah kat dlm rumah tu..w/p berkunci tp tetap dpt masuk...dah dpt kunci baru dpt buat grill...but first of all nak pecah tingkap and tutup one area then pindahkan tingkap kat tpt lain.then baruk taruk grill...pastu nak tarok cabinet dapor pulak...semua nak duit...duit dah di savekan untuk tu..but ari tu dah bagi company pakai ...x taula bila dpt balik..hopefully when it is needed dptla ..by hook or by crook.

berbalik ke pegi lunch...bila dah tengok anak2 semua dah makan dan kenyang..hati lega tp kepala sakit..rupanya kena datang bulan pulak....telan actifast 2 bijik mata terus jadi ngantok....balik rumah terus tertidor....jarang nak tidor siang...cuma bila sakit dan teramat letih baru dpt tertidor...

sedar2 rupanya kakak dah balik (semalam die keluar x balik..rupanya pegi Melaka dgn kawan2) dan siap goreng keropok lagi...mata masih ngantok tp x boleh bantai tidor nanti badan rasa macam x bermaya..dan anak2 rupanye semua x tido..tengok tv..cerita katon katon katon....susah nak bukak channel lain...cuma malam je dpt conquer tv..kalu x tu susah betol

dah pukul 6 petang ...anak2 dah siap mandi ..ada yg mandi sendiri dan ada yang memandai nak mandi sendiri tp bila keluar toilet badan masih bersabun..yg tu yang nak kena jaga mandi..anak2 dah besar dah dpt relax dan x kelam-kabut mcm dulu...tp bila tengok anak2 membesar..rasa susah hati pulak bila tengok budak2 remaja sekarang...dlm hati cuma dpt cakap didikan agama kena bagi dan tebalkan ke dlm hati diaorg..tu tiang iman diaorang supaya dpt berfikir mana baik dan mana buruk...harapan sekarang dah sama macam harapan mak ngan abah dulu..now I know ...and can understand how much my parents love me and how grateful I am for being their daughter...walaupun dulu pernah dan kerap menghampakan mereka tetapi bila dah jadi isteri org, ibu org, menantu org...rasanya sikap matang dan lebih bertanggungjawap tu semakin improve dan cuba di improvekan lagi...dengan harapan can be a better person...

mungkin kali ni xde cerita yang menarik ...mata dah terlalu mengantok w/p idea banyak...belom masanya lagi.....until next time.

anything about everything

Today...hmmm...not working...malas...anyway no need to apply becoz hubby mmg tau pun. He's big boss...one of the advantage working with hubby sendiri..boring dok kat rumah je...so...ajak cuci mata coz anak2 pun mcm kera je kat rumah ...x sabar nak pindah rumah baru. bilala nak dpt kunci ni...all the interior design and plan for home sweet home dah berbulan2 dibuat but...mcm2 document nak kena sign...this and that..now..just tunggu bank disburse loans and hopefully b4 sekolah cuti dpt kunci so dpt buat apa yang perlu and priority dulu to the house then baru masuk...packing pun takat kemas toys budak2 yang x tau berapa kotak dah..kalau x di seal kan garenti bersepah balik...tupun byk lagi toys yang bersepah..mane yang dibeli recently..nak pack semua nanti kang mati kutu anak2 kat rumah xde toys...

hari ni as usual kalau jalan2 mesti cari makan dulu...x tau nak makan kat mane...last2 makan kat R & R ...(among all places)..nak makan kat Kota Damansara..mlm baru sedap..x tau pulak bukak x siang2..x check pun..butter prawn is irresistible..and the price is affordable..tengah ekonomi gawat kena berpada-pada especially bila dah ada anak2..bln2 kena budget..as long as yuran sekolah bdk2 dibayr and all utilities and loans dibayar dah rasa lega sangat2...

tanah kat kelang tengah tunggu je cukup haul nak jual...sekarang dah jadi liability...kalau dulu angan2 nak bina rumah je but when the time dah submit to MBSA susah nak lepas...biasala nak duit kopi dulu baru proses berjalan macam nak buat banglo juta2 ...agak2la jugak...plan dah ada as what they wanted before complete with everything but x dpt diteruskan because x suap dulu..macamana ni???ntahla..macam negara India pulak..so many corruptions. so dah bosan ..aleh2 carik rumah yang dah siap...at last dapat carik home sweet home which location is more better than location tanah...so...hopefully next year dah dpt jual tanah..so that bulan2 dpt saving banyak.that's life...jgn papa tapi nak bergaya..nak terus hidup kena berbudget (though sometimes out of budget sebab nafsu mengatasi segala..hahahhaha..anyway jgn sampai anak2 kebulur cukup...

harapan sekarang harap2 company hubby dpt sukses and dpt byk projek...so that x risau with other's life yang ditanggung ..luckily..overhead dah semakin kurang and all the staff very understanding and supportive...as long as dpt cari makan dgn cara yang halal dan diguna untuk benda yang insyaAllah dpt berkat...that's why kita as hambaNya wujud kat mukabumi pun..sebab nak carik keberkatan dgn akal fikiran dan tenaga yang diberikan.

In business macam2 ada...yang penting tekad, usaha dan prinsip kena ada...dan prinsip tu kena jaga...mcm2 ragam orang dpt dinilai bila dah ceburkan diri in business...kebanyakannya x menyenangkan tapi alhamdulillah setakat ni prinsip untuk tidak campuradukkan perkara yang x betul dlm apa2 deal...rezeki yang Allah beri untuk isi perut org..jd apa yang masuk dlm perut kena berkat...baru hidup rasa tenang......that's all for today...will be continued